Take that future

Lately I have been trying to be more active in getting myself prepared for college whether that means making emma go running with me so that I can force myself to up hold an obligation and thus get things done, or by ordering large amounts of books from the library and making myself read them. The plan at the moment is to set up my future self to be in a position where it has to do things that will be advantageous for even the farther future self. Despite being assured to the contrary, I am still worried about possible lacking the adequatecy of a college student. To counter this I have started reading Gestalt Psychology books, and have ordered more on the way so that I can have a base come those classes. Slotting Japanese into my first year is also troubling. I don't know whether I should be watching anime, or trying to find a free online something, or get more books on it.
Unfortunate side effects include: literally zero motivation to do anything in school. It annoys me that I have not accomplished more in my time in shop especially. If I was serious about doing things I could have made so many things, but instead my procrastination has limited me to only a few. The same goes for art. I was not allowed to present this picture as it "was not mine" despite all I did was look at a smaller picture and then enlarge it on my own (I didn't trace anything).
I can't tell if I need people around me so that I can keep a picture of the world that includes more than just me, or if I need to be alone so that I can retract a little and get these things done. Current feeling is at level 4 I would say. After doing math on my math grade I can't fail it as long as I don't get a zero on my final, so I think I will be alright. I am a little sad philosophy is over. Even though I didn't learn anything, it was nice to have terminology for thoughts that I had, and a peace of mind that others were able to come to such a thought as well. I'm not crazy yet.

Stalin

Sociology, and other randomness

Reconnectedness

I can't explain it, just know that it is happening

(madison sketch to be added)

The Superest

It has been a while since i've been drawing, let alone being creative, let alone funny, but this time, i think things came together perfectly. this one has the potential to be amazing. Some how, Nick and i got internet themed, and hilarity ensued.
(my personal favorite is the last drawing, done by nick. i am also wishing i drew darker so it would show up better when scanned.)

Stomp! stomp!

Something Wicked This Way Comes....


Mammoth Overlords. All Your Base Are Belong To Them.

Highway

need a sleep.

Drifting

Cycle

(better viewed bigger)

I have talked with Tracy about the idea of cycles. The idea that you shift between mind sets, and what you may have thought when you were twelve, discarded as you grew older, and then as you go through the cycle, even come back to that same conclusion when you are twenty that you had when you were twelve. Things that you thought were concrete and obvious, can turn into obscurity with startling speed, only to come back into vision, and then be lost just as fast. I think I'm becoming more understanding of the phoenix. It continues through its life, knowing that it is just a matter of time before it meets a fiery death. Only after that plunge into the flames can it break its self down to the tiny fragments of ash and bone, and begin again, slowly reforming, slowly becoming reminiscent of its former self.

"Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me."
-Beatles

These lyrics have been stuck in my head lately. Maybe it has been my over exposure to Beatles songs over the weekend, and watching Across the Universe, which I probably won't watch a second time, there are definitely worse movies to see twice. I had thought that I had smoothed out the plaster over the cracks, and that much like a new building, it would take some time for it to look normal in its surroundings.. but I found a crack, and upon closer inspection, the crack was not singular, but one of a vein of cracks, resembling much like a creeping vine that covers foundations like these. They are annoying to have to continue to deal with, but I don't think that I will ever get rid of them. A friend exterminated his hamsters.. I need to find a way to exterminate this weed before it consumes me.

Surviving the Storm

Can't find no rest on my own

...Still i'm not so sure that i know,


Man, the Trouble is,
We don't know who we are instead.

Tunnels

..at least i have a candle.

Decisions

.....

A summer allusion

Journey

Thinking pt 3

Thinking pt 2

Still Thinking