A Lesson in Mobility

I am sometimes very curious and very interested in my ability to move my body from one location to the next. I just... get up and enter a new world. I can do that if I want to. I can go anywhere as long as I have either practiced running enough to get there, or climbing enough to get to another branch or hold.
Today I hovered my torso over to the Japanese House to make some food and then eat it in the Sun. It helped remind me. I can just do things I don't know how to do without preparing. I can screw up making sushi and it will be ok. As long as I remain concentrated of self, I can move. I can commit to an action and then present it to those around me.

As I've said many times before now I'm sure, "I think I can finally start being confident in my motions and do what I intend to". This idea is still lacking I feel in the ability to bring it to action rather than mentally accepted. This second semester has done quite a bit in terms of ability to swim better and learn the flow.
Things that too often are forgotten I feel:
-"This world, I think we like it"-Makoto Shinkai
-Teaching others to learn to listen. They want to, but sometimes we forget.
-I am a capable human being. I can do anything I want to, and achieve whatever goal I have. Nothing is too high, nothing is unreasonable if one tries hard enough to reach it.
-Patience
-People are orbs of light. Their bodies the way I interact with them, their minds in how I know them.
-No live with out growth, no growth without change, no change without death.

Hello Present

The world around me is finally feeling like a concrete area in which I live. This may sound just a mite hard to understand, but I believe that I have taken large steps in definitely coaxing myself out of the perspective of reality with a thin veil covering everything. Many things have been swirling around, but at least I have stayed in the same place, and have not been bullied by the winds to change stances. I will try to add some pictures to this post later once I get my camera uploaded, or charged. At the moment I am living back at Reed for a night. It is a little relaxing to be back here. Probably the aesthetics, but still, just a different buzz of people than I am used to seeing at Whitman. Even in this small windy day nothing is actually pushing itself to insistently. There are tremors and reminders, but they are not the type that try hearts. Settling continues to occur. Motivation still needs work not surprisingly enough.

Passions

hope

"I found your sister in a Reed article. Why didn't you go there? You would have done well at Reed."
-Craig Gunsol

Perhaps..

Something that the following discussion brought up was the safety of Whitman students and how they act within the rules. They don't do as well at going crazy and whatever they want. I kind of miss that from the few days I stayed at Reed and the ambient feel of it in surrounding Portland. While I can expand here a little better than at Reed, I feel as if in order to stay within social confines, it would be unwise to reveal just how impassioned I am about the randomness of my knowledge. I would love to speak to people all day long about things, or make something using an idea a friend heard in physics or do something. I feel this is a great place to learn, I am not sure I am in the right place to do. Or maybe learn to do. This nerfing of passions must not be allowed to happen I have decided. I have for too long been a shell of borderline apetheticness and am in desperate need of resurfacing to the qwirky and the emotional. I need to love my work and I need to know that the work loves me. While I know those around me have superpowers, and would not be here if they didn't, I can't always get the sense that they are using them. That being said expansion must continue. Expand until all is one and understanding is living.

If only

Mathematical Communication

A Better Representation of Absence

Whitman pictures are at the beginning with all the flatness, and starting at the great door is Reed.



















(The nuclear reactor with accessory duckies)




in no particular order.

Spring is in the Air. So is a 60% chance of percipitation

i am well aware some of these are not right side up.. i'm hoping to trick everyone into having to lean way to the side to look at the picture. that, and i just haven't had adequate time to make this post better. there are many more pictures, but with my current time restraints, this is the best i could whip up. there will be more to follow, but not for a while.
actually, i have some video footage of the campus, again. more to come.

waking up

today we got up, and ate some food in the Co-op (where college people cook food to eat instead of buying it) and that was pretty good. we put some bread, potatoes, and some green onions in an omlete, and ate a pear. then we went off to get some pens at the book store. after which, i got on this computer and wrote this post.
so far i have sat in on a psych class regarding memory and how it responds to tramatic events. later today i'm sitting on a genetic something or other talk.more on that later.
the campus here is really nice and filled with climable trees. it's usually overcast here, and it sprinkles every now and then but apart from that the place has a good feel to it. it almost makes me feel like i should actively be producing something or using my time to get something done. there is, from what i'm told, an on campus apple store that i have yet to find, and they have their own research nuclear reactor. there is still a chance that i may be able to watch it glow and what-not.
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ok, now i'm home. it's been a while before i have been able to get on here due to massive loads of homework. i thoroughly enjoyed the time i had at Reed. I mean, the place has a Japanese Sword handling class. you don't get much more l337 than that. upon arriving back home, i realize that i feel like a trapped entity... i believe i described it best as feeling like i was stuck in a nontangible tar pit that is high school. i can't believe i'm learning inside one single building when i could be walking around outside for 45 minutes before the next class. or waking up at 8 pm instead of 550. the campus was beautiful. some of these pictures don't do it just for , one it was rainy. i try imagining it if it were sunny and i'm sure it's amazing. i've also noticed that just walking outside for those periods after classes is very stress relieving. just the fact that you aren't contained is a nice feeling. my next post will be full of the pictures that i could have put here but didn't.