I have been doing a lot this year. I feel like I have not done a good job actually letting myself know how much stuff I've been doing this year. I have learned how to speak ok Japanese. I have learned what a computer is. I have learned basical survival readings. I have started narrowing down my thesis topics, gotten knowledgable about politics and the state of things.
I have learned how to be happy with less. Spencer and I often point out that there may actually come a time where we don't find ourselves wanting things. Right now I don't actually need to buy any more things. I need housing and stuff, but apart from the day to day life, I have books, games, computers and other unnecessary things. Through a mess of factors including understanding more of the political scene, being a little more environmentally aware, and understanding how much of my life has been influenced by American consumerism, I have stumbled on myself striving to start anew. I think I know what I want in a lifestyle, and I think I know what I don't want. The tricky part is removing the later. I don't need many things from my past. They sit around as physical reminders, holding me from time to time, but do not free me.
I am going to miss leaving Japan, but I am very excited for returning to America. I have ideas. I think I can do them. I know I have the ability. I need to royally get my ass in gear where homework and reading is involved, but I think everything will work out.
Another musing is just realizing how amazing any form of income will be. I am worried that I may not find a job right away but even if that is the case, just living on my own somewhere where I can have some peace of mind and my own personal zen hut will be wonderful. Granted, I need to get student loans out of the way. Those will be the hardest thing of all. I hope that maybe by the time I'm 30 I will be rid of them D:
Just the idea that I could potentially have $1000 as my PLAY money is amazing. I fully understand how easy it is for that to disappear with bills and living expenses or houses and cars, but seriously... That's a lot of play money. That is an "Oh. I guess I'll travel. Oh, I guess I get a sick new computer. Oh, I guess I get several hundreds of books. Oh I guess I eat like double the king I was last year. Oh I'll just make it rain cause I can. Oh I'll just pay someone to install kinnect into my house and make my home a living interface."
That's what throws me for a loop. I can just get things if I were to care to.
Even the fact I can be like "eh. don't like living here. To somewhere in Japan, or elsewhere in the world" astounds me. So much power...
I realize I have to get there first, but I'd like to think I have several ok paths infront of me. Bad case scenario, I go and work as starbucks or something. Either way. Will cling to Takemoto and his knowing placement of people.
I am excited to get back to Whitman and start practicing my new life. I think I have done well to make some steps, and I am excited to start not buying things anymore. The list will slowly get whittled away until I can just up and do anything on a whim. That would be the best. Ever.
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Saturday, March 17, 2012
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Friday Night
Situation: Babylon A.D came out, and even though we haven't really seen it yet, the internet rumored it to be not that great. So our rag-tag band set out for a more better movie to watch. While strolling through BestBuy, we happened upon a piece of old-school gold. He-Man. Immediately we scavenged for another season, and were rewarded with the complete series. Every single episode of He-Man: Masters of the Universe were OURS! Also to go along with this, we had loaded up at Biglots, and were ready for feast-ening. The medium for viewing was an at least fifty inch amazing-tv and comfy couches littered with zebra cake wrappers. The next 7 hours were some of the best of the summer. I can only hope to continue to recreate it from time to time.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008
In other news, Sam is allowed to go to college.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Oedipus Saurus Rex
Monday, January 7, 2008
Monday, December 10, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Rotlan 2007/Thinking pt. 5-end
this has been the end of an AMAZING week so far. test scores have not been scary, i've only been tricked once, i've been able to stay up around kohler with cool people who eat pie and watch disney movies, i found answers in leaves and clouds and little puddles on the sidewalk, homework is minimal, people are showing an over all positive non-jerkness in their tendencies, and there was more than enough guitar hero and halo to go around. in ADDITION, nick severson showed up, and talk from the past was resumed and added upon. i still have warm, fuzzy clothing, and most importantly, clean happy socks, and the presence of milk and cookies.
current feeling- very light white purple ribbons, back ground of dark navy blue, buabbles of orange and red, and intertwining ribbons of white-green and pink. ... gold sun beams through out.
as the final corner piece, gently thuds into place, a calming silence grips the land. all is right.




current feeling- very light white purple ribbons, back ground of dark navy blue, buabbles of orange and red, and intertwining ribbons of white-green and pink. ... gold sun beams through out.
as the final corner piece, gently thuds into place, a calming silence grips the land. all is right.





Thursday, October 25, 2007
The Milkshake Horizon
Friends... I have seen a pie put into a cup and mixed with delicious things... And it is amazing.
-add more pie next time.
-add more pie next time.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
So Close..
sometimes i can't help sending people emails, or writing on facebook, and feeling a slight feeling of glee when in real life they bring up, or remark on a topic that i've sent to them via a type of text form on the computer. in a way, i'm communicating information almost directly into their brain.. that's almost telekineses...it gives me a fleeting feeling of power, and hope that maybe it's not as far-fetched as people may think.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Sunday, March 4, 2007
Sunday, February 25, 2007
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